Let it go?

So, one of my best friends is going to the mall on Saturday with a bunch of our friends. She really wants me to go, but there's kind of an issue. One of the people going was a really close friend of mine last year, but things are a little different between the two of us. If you're wondering, this friend is a guy. He and I were really close last year, but then things kind of change between him and I. He doesn't know it, but I kind of got upset with him at the earlier this year...kind of at the end of the whole school year. I wasn't really talking to him and I kind of avoided him. At the end of the year, on yearbook day is when I finally talked to him, really talked to him. Then other things kind of happened and I found myself upset with him again. There always is something I'm not telling, because I don't really want to say it...but I might let you know what it is...maybe... Anyways, my friend told me to come and I told her I would, but then she started telling me all who was coming and when she told me this guy was going I completely froze. I don't want to see him, but I don't want to let my friend down...besides I want to go...I just don't really want to go because I think it would be awkward with him there. I wouldn't know what to say to him and I'm also afraid that I'll ignore him and then he'll confront me about it, causing a big deal. Part of me wants to go, but the other part is telling me not to go. What do you think I should do? Should I just go and not let him get in the way, or should I just not go? Should I just let this all go and forgive and forget?

Life is getting busier!

With school on its way, and the end of summer wrapping up, things are starting to get busier. With the online classes I'm already taking, and getting ready to move into a new room, looking for a job, babysitting, finishing up on summer reading, and all the things for getting ready for school. It's going to be getting pretty chaotic when the school year begins! So, what I need is to become more organized with my life. What are some ways to keep your schedule organized with time left for yourself? If ya have any ideas or ways you keep it all together, then please share! Thanks! :)

Life is going good!

Hey guys! Thanks for all the great feedback on my last post...I still haven't talked to her about it yet, but she and I are getting along pretty well lately. So, that's good! :D That's one good thing that's been going great in my life lately. Another WONDERFUL thing that's going on right now is I'm in the middle of going through my stuff in my bedroom. Usually, this wouldn't be so great, but it is for me because I will be getting a new room once I've finished in my room (that I share with my sisters) and the playroom. Since we're all starting to grow up, we don't need a playroom...therefore, I get to use it as my room! OH YEAH! I'm so happy! :D For as long as I can remember, I have always had to share a room. So this is really big for me. On top of all that, school is about to start...and yeah, I know...school is....um...well school is school...and can be boring. But I'm actually excited to start school again. I am ready to see all my friends I have missed over the summer. I can't wait to see them all. I've missed seeing them so often. I've seen a lot of them over the summer, but not as much as I'd like. So, school...let's get started! These are just a few things that are making my life great right now...on top of that...SUMMER HAS BEEN AMAZING! I've had time with my grandparents, friends, and family. I've gone on a backpacking trip, camping, and lots of places around my home. It has been a fun and memorable summer. And I'm going to end it all in a Back-to-School Party! That way I can see ALL my best friends again! It's going to be based off of the TV show, 'Minute-to-Win-It! I love that show and it's going to be a blast! I can't wait! :D How has your guys summers been? I want to hear of some things you all have done. :D

I can't deal with it...but I don't know what to do!

I'm really tired of my friend telling me lies. It seems to me that's all she tells me lately. Sometimes it seems like she wants to be my friend, but there are starting to be lots of times when she ignores me and it feels like she doesn't want to be friends anymore. She's like sending me mix messages. I'm tired of it, and I don't know what to do. She also likes to either stretch the truth, or just lie about things. It's starting to get hard to know what is real and what isn't. It seems to me that she thinks EVERY single boy she meets HAS to love her. I'm tired of hearing things like, "He keeps turning his head back. He likes me." or "Did you hear the way he said that. I think he likes me." or "He just looked back here. He likes me." or "He likes me, he keeps talking to me." or "He flirts with me all the time." or "He always says 'hi' to me in the halls. He's never done that. He must like me." or "He keeps asking me for help. I think he likes me." You see! It gets annoying! I can't talk to her about this stuff because she gets really mad sometimes. I have talked to her about it before...like 4 years ago. That was one of the worst fights I have ever been in. I remember running to the bathroom because she made me cry so hard. It was awful. I don't want to have a repeat of that...so I really don't know what to do. Any suggestions?

On your mark, Get set, GO!

Here we are! The real beginning of this blog. This may be a crazy ride, like I  mentioned last post. But don't worry, it's not all going to be bad. I may have lots of stuff that I'm struggling with, but I do have loads of fun too. I'm just like any normal teenager. :) So, in advance...I'm sorry if I ever seem like a big baby, or some weak stupid little gal. I do ask for any opinions and any advice. I want to know what I can do when I have a problem. I'm tired of having everybody come to me with their problems, asking me for advice...but when I need it, they won't listen. This is the only way I can let it all out...and it would be nice to get advice too. So, if you have anything to say...just say please. I need help...and if you need help...just ask. "We're all in this together." We can all help each other out. Don't be afraid to let it out. If ya want some advice...somebody will give it to ya. :)